Easter Sunday, 2024, around 9pm:

My house alarm is going off. I wake up to two people trying to drill into my deadlock at my back door. One is hired help; the other is now an ex-tenant who was renting a room. 

Easter, this year, landed on my mother's four-year anniversary of crossing over. I realized about a week and a half in and had told my house guest that I wanted to spend it at home, in peace. I had told her the month before it wasn't working and as per our agreement, I gave her a month's notice. Actually, I gave her a month and two weeks, as I spoke with her on February 19th. The last week of her stay, she was barely at my home. No word as to why. This was common, as she never communicated unless she wanted something. A point I noticed and part of why I gave her notice. I text to find out if she was ok and if she planned to return before the end of the week. She said she'd be there over the weekend. Annoyed, I asked if she could be out by Saturday, reminding her I wanted to be alone Sunday. I got a self-absorbed answer.

My best friend that I grew up with, and her husband happen to live in North Carolina, too. That was part of my incentive for moving to Charlotte. My bestie asked if I wanted to come over for the holiday. At first, I wasn't going to go. I just wanted to spend time at home, in quiet peace. Then I thought better. I was going to be really upset if my ex-tenant was going to spend the day in my home when I specifically asked her not to. I decided to go see my bestie and her family. My ex-tenant arrived in my home at 2:30am. By the time I left at 10am, she was just getting up and doing a load of wash. Did I mention my dryer has not been working. A bird incident. I figured my ex-tenant would be gone by the time I arrived back home.

I left my bestie at 4pm. I noticed my ex-tenant still coming in and out of the house with my door camera. I arrived home around 6pm. Most of her stuff was gone and there was a load of laundry going. I decided to change the door code and go to sleep. It had been a long day and I was done. I get a text message at 7pm that she can't get in. I'm half asleep in my bedroom, the back of the house. I simply tell her it's 7pm, she's been there all day and I'm done. I can bring the remainder two bags she left to her the following morning. I'd be in at 7:30am. 

I received a barrage of texts in fury and threats of reporting me, whatever that meant. I wake up to drilling. When I came to my back door, which is a glass panel back door, she just looked at me like it was nothing. No big deal. I'm completely in my right. (I come to find out from the officer on the phone, technically she was in her right. Unless otherwise stated, she had until 11:59 that evening.) There was no expression on her face. Like we were having a regular conversation. Cold.

It wasn't for a few days later I realized I had leveled up in my lessons. Narcissist had turned to Sociopath. That fine line that showed true colors. If it wasn't for the revelation, I'm not sure I would have noticed the "mirroring" that happened. The pretend caring, lightworker, intuitive, "empathetic" display. Looking back, it only held when I was being myself. She didn't do it on her own. I noticed the need to make everything about herself and the pretend moments of "seeing" me, that only mattered when she wanted something. Taking another look, she always had problems with people. Honestly, I can have that problem, too, so I didn't see it as differently as I do now. For instance, she always makes them the "problem". I can't say the "bad guy". She just paints a picture as if she understands them, but it's never deep and there's never an expansion of the understanding. In my own trials with people, I have come to learn that they aren't "bad", it's just where they "are", and I take responsibility for my part in the exchange.

In hindsight, I could have text her when I changed the code and just made arrangements to leave her stuff outside and have her pick them up. But if things didn't play out the way they did, I wouldn't have seen her true colors. She presented very well. I would've written it off as she was just troubled and she's just not going to do the work. I wouldn't have seen the nuances of this level and what to look out for in the future. I wouldn't have experienced my neighbors love, protection and help. I wouldn't have experienced a new level of bad-assery in my own body. Whatever I learned transcended in my body. The next day people were ecstatic to see me! I was being told I was glowing! 

As to my glowing, I feel like I know why. Needless to say, I went to bed very angry that night. It was needless drama and damage for no reason. NO REASON! Just a display to show your pretend power and your need for control. As I do every night, I prayed. For hours, because the needle was on the record! Play that song again, like a toxic need to vent! So, I called on Jesus and Archangel Michael to take away the feeling and bring back peace. That's all I wanted that day!!! It was getting better, but not as fast as it has in the past when I've called on the other side. I asked God, "How is this working for me?". I was flooded with Light. And then Peace. It was liked I walked into Heaven, and Heaven decided to stay. I needed this experience to step into my new level of Healer. As you can see in the world, we are greatly needed.

This month's blog was supposed to be about Friendship. So, this will be a two-part series and will be continued next month. I'm excited to see what this new month will bring! I feel the blessings are boundless! 

Do you have experience with narcissists? Have you "leveled" up in your lessons? What have you learned? I'd love to hear from you!

Sending out so much Love, Light and Blessings to fill your souls that you may shine from the inside out, too!!!

Julia xo