A fellow Lightworker/Psychic/Medium reached out this past Sunday. I had a reading with her earlier this year, and she reaches out every once in a while, with a message or directive. This Sunday she text, "Write a love letter to yourself". Funny she text that to me as I've been re-evaluating "who I am". 

Who am I? This journey into my healing and becoming a Healer has left me feeling that I don't really feel like "me", or at least that's my awareness lately. What is "me" is now? I don't know. I'm identifying and trying to find remnants of things I used to like about myself. I made a list to help me start. I only had a few before I started to write what "I used to" like/do/feel. It was interesting to look at the list and feel like it was stuff I hated about myself, too. I left the list and what I noticed. I figured I'd come back after letting it stew and see what I would write when I returned.

I came back the next day and wrote the following. It just flowed. I didn't feel like it was "me" writing. I'm sure it was guided. 

Dearest Julie,

Why I love you so much…...I love your childlike, playful energy. The kind that lights up a room, makes everyone smile, and carries them through the day. The energy that is sweet and caring like this world doesn't exist. The kind of energy that has reckless abandon whilst holding dear that God has you. I LOVE THAT ENERGY! 

I love how you love so deep, it hurts. And that you're willing to take on that hurt if someone else can feel better, if only for a moment. I love how you are willing to go to the ends of the Earth for the people you love. That's a courage that most people are lucky to dream about. I love your courage. I love your strength. It was built very special in just you. You were made very special to help others, especially in your soul group. You and your Twin were made to be two sides of the same coin. You are the same. 

I love when you are just being yourself. Again, you are very special, and that Light that you carry is stunning. It scares a lot of people who don't know that about themselves, and it makes you feel like crawling inside. You have to be you! You are a very special gift. Even if they are not in a perspective to see the gift. Life is a gift and not everyone knows how to really live.

I love when you are singing and dancing and playing. That is where you feel like "you". Remember that and remember to do that often. You are "too" adult because you feel like that's all you have now. It's not true. YOU are all you have now, and YOU like to live. Take time daily to listen to music, even for a little while and let yourself sing and dance. There's always time.

I love how connected you are to the other side, to God, to your angels and Spirit Guides. Your family. We are all here, cheering you on. You ARE doing what you are called to do. Trust. Even when others don't understand. We are here holding you, too. We know you know, and that you'd like that to be more in the 3D. It's coming. And not months down the road. Now. It's happening now, and faster than it seems. Just keep opening your heart and connecting to Love. It's coming in fast. And it's going to be overwhelming how much Love is coming.

Lastly, I love that you are constantly trying to Love yourself and find ways to expand your practice in that Love. It will continue all your life, and you will continue to grow. That's what you do, even when you're not enjoying the journey and feeling comfortable. Yet you continue to keep Loving others and yourself. You should be proud. I LOVE YOU.

Your Higher Self

I would add my sarcastic whit. It's something I've stifled a bit in ordered to be "nicer" to people, thinking maybe I was being mean. I've been assured I'm not going to hurt anyone. And I've decided I need to let my mouth rip again when presented with such a situation. 

I hope this finds those to who need here how they are wonderful and Loved. You are. I hope this finds people like me or on a similar journey and need to hear they aren't the only ones feeling this way. You aren't. I hope you find the time to try this exercise yourself. Let me know your results. I'd love to hear from you.

Until next time, Love, Light and Blessings,

Julia